Where Art Thou?
As much as I may cry out for God to hear me, see me, know me and care for me, I also have just as much or more of a desire for God to NOT look for me. I am not perfect. I do make mistakes and sometimes even the same mistake. However, I want to still be in good graces with God. Here is where I regret God always being present and attentive. If God would just turn His head sometimes then I would not be accountable for some of the mistakes that I make. If God would turn his head sometimes then maybe I would not disappoint God so much and so often. IF God would turn His head sometimes then maybe I would not have to rebuild my reputation and self perception every tme. If God would turn His head sometimes then maybe I could feel better about myself andnot have to face my own inadequacies so much.
The problem is that God will not turn His head.
God is always present. God is always watching. God KNOWS. Then that makes me hide. I hide behind my own situation. I hide behind my good deeds. I hide behind my excuses. I hide behind my fears. I do everything I can to not have to face God and my shortcomings…but…I still hear the same thing from God in the end….Where art thou?
